Honorbound

[Captain Stelevein]

As I finished reading a good friend of mine's Vow As A Man I realize that many people probably don't know or don't comprehend how my mind works, so I feel obligated to fill any who are curious in. Everything I do, think or say, I base off a philosophy I keep dear to me. First of all, I don't have much in this world, and It has not been kind to me. When I must commit to something, or pay a debt to someone, all I have is my word; my honor. When I become honorbound to someone or something, I hold that internal promise dearly, it weighs on my mind heavily, to ensure that i never forget the promise I made. I do my best to pledge myself to completing the terms I set for myself. Now what the hell does this have to do with anything?




You see, I am not perfect. I make mistakes, and have made mistakes before. Now, I must make amends for all the wrong I did, I'm currently doing, or that I may one day do.I bound myself to this calling,a lifelong debt I feel I must pay, because i fear the consequences of my actions when I leave this world. So, i created these guidelines for myself, to keep my goal clear, and to light the way to my salvation.




1. My word is sacred, it means everything. NEVER break an oath you take.




2. There is no honor in ignoring the weak. I am weak in the eyes of someone greater, and do not wish upon another the burden deniel brings.




3. I am imperfect, but this is no excuse for failure. Work endlessly to fix your faults.




4. The world is not fair or kind, but I am. Do not deny compassion to another because someone denied it to you.




5. My enemy is still my brother.




6. All men make mistakes. I have made many. All must pay the debt they owe to heaven, but do not in debt another to myself.




7. Give your sword, your hand, your friendship, your life to any that sincerely asks this of you.




8. I am my brother's keeper, and he is mine. Guard him well...........




9. Pay your debt, and in mercy may Heaven hold my oath fulfilled.

[Akiyamasan]

The thing about that is that hardly anybody understands how even their own minds function. It takes a lot of introspection to be completely sure of yourself about who you are, and it's a very big part of growing up and realizing self-actualization. I guess I can relate to the cruelty of the world, as before my current situation my situation was quite poor. Honor, duty, and responsibility are my primary motivators in life, but I had been risen and conditioned to believe so.

I too have various guidelines that I live by, so I suppose I'll list several of them myself in closest comparitive order to your guidelines that I can.

1. Don't ever speak in certainties unless you are prepared to stake your life on their validity. Such is the same if you decide to give your word to a cause. Commit to this cause as if your life depends on it, otherwise you are nothing less than pathetic.

2. The weak are not to be oppressed.

3. Perfection does not exist. But one should not ever stop to attempt to achieve the best they can.

4. The things that happen, happen for a reason. Even the bad things can be fixed if you put in the correct effort.

5. An enemy is little more than another obstacle to overcome.

6. Strive not to make mistakes, if you do happen to make them, make sure you know why they happened.

7. Though friends are a boon, take care not to rely on them too much, or you may end up being a burden.

8. Never neglect family obligations, and respect filial piety.

9. Pay debts promptly.

10. Do not enter a conflict on your own behalf, but for a larger cause instead.

[Captain Stelevein]

Some of them guidelines are quite close to mine indeed. It just seems, I think I spoke mine more clearly, as I summed all of mine up in a few words.

All of us are human, and we have a limit to how much we can abide by our own guidelines. You see, I am; as stated above, imperfect, therefore I have many flaws in these guidelines, but I will strive and push myself until I have no flaws in what I do. It's all humans can hope for is imperfection, yet they try to push themselves toward a goal that is unreal. Life is Tedious, and we can not see the future, but I can guarantee if we push ourselves past the limits we set for ourselves then the future should be better than where we are now.

On the other hand, just because my guidelines has flaws doesn't mean I don't abide by them. You see, I never go against my own rules. It defeats the purpose of having them, though I believe every rule is meant to be broken at times, I just pray mine are never broken. Sad thing about this, is if I ever come face to face with a choice in breaking a rule, or keeping it, I don't know what I'd do because either way someone or something could get hurt. Which would just mean everything I have based my life on would have been for nothing. It's a complication that holds everyone back, these facets of our lives can NEVER be overcome.

[Akiyamasan]

Aug 14, 2011 18:22:48 GMT -5 Captain Stelevein said:

Some of them guidelines are quite close to mine indeed. It just seems, I think I spoke mine more clearly, as I summed all of mine up in a few words.

All of us are human, and we have a limit to how much we can abide by our own guidelines. You see, I am; as stated above, imperfect, therefore I have many flaws in these guidelines, but I will strive and push myself until I have no flaws in what I do. It's all humans can hope for is imperfection, yet they try to push themselves toward a goal that is unreal. Life is Tedious, and we can not see the future, but I can guarantee if we push ourselves past the limits we set for ourselves then the future should be better than where we are now.

On the other hand, just because my guidelines has flaws doesn't mean I don't abide by them. You see, I never go against my own rules. It defeats the purpose of having them, though I believe every rule is meant to be broken at times, I just pray mine are never broken. Sad thing about this, is if I ever come face to face with a choice in breaking a rule, or keeping it, I don't know what I'd do because either way someone or something could get hurt. Which would just mean everything I have based my life on would have been for nothing. It's a complication that holds everyone back, these facets of our lives can NEVER be overcome.

Comparing the clarity of guidelines people set for themselves and only themselves? Bad move. You sir, are tactless.

Guidelines are guidelines, not restrictions. If the situation calls forth for the guideline to be interrupted, that's why it's a guideline, it doesn't command all aspects of your life, it only assists in leading you toward a goal.

Guidelines always have flaws, it's impossible to achieve perfection. You can abide by them as much as you can, but in the end anything achieved is because of your own efforts toward the matter. Guidelines can help tether you to a specific path, but they shouldn't be the deciding factor when you need to make decisions.

[Captain Stelevein]

Let me be the first to say, everything you said is correct. I might have made you missunderstand what I was trying to say. You see, guidelines don't control every aspect of your life, which you said and it's very true. But, think about it, when your life has been so messed up by things you see in the world, when you are in your room crying at night because of everything that happens to your friends, (Two of mine were shot and killed) You strive to meet these goals. Whether you know it doesn't decide everything or now is invalid, point being. I know they don't decide everything, but I can't help what I know and what I feel, I feel no matter what I wouldn't be able to make that decision when the time comes. These guidelines have made me who I am today, whether any one accepts who I am/who I have and will become, I can not help.

To be blunt, I don't really care whether people think I'm an idiot for living my life based off so little. Simply because I am afraid what will happen to me when I leave this world. We all have something to fear, and that is my fear. So whether they have flaws or not, I will strive to make them perfect, which I know will NEVER happen. But, it's a chance I find worth taking.